Father’s Day

Posted on Sunday, June 15, 2008 at 11:46 am
Category: Life

Today is usually for Fathers. I say usually because, for me, it was another day for my Mom.

As I have mentioned in other posts about her, she was mother and father to us. I always got her a Father’s Day card…it was the running joke in the family.

When I went to bed last night, I started thinking about Mama and the fact that she really is gone and I’ll never hear her voice again. I’ll never again hear her tell me things will be ok when I call to vent about whatever.

I’ll never again hear her tell me she loves me.

The tears started and I couldn’t get them to stop.

I was ok this morning. Got up and got dressed, went to church and when church was almost over with…the tears started again and still haven’t stopped. A took the girls out to eat to spend some time with them for Father’s Day, so I’m trying to get this out of my system before they get back. It worries them when they see me cry. I guess because I’ve done it more in the past 3 months than I have since they’ve been in this world (12 years for the oldest).

I can’t believe she’s gone…it just doesn’t seem real.

I still need her.

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4 Comments »

  1. Renee said,

    June 15, 2008 @ 12:47 pm

    Cindy-

    I am thinking of you on this day as well. :-)

  2. Cindy said,

    June 15, 2008 @ 1:26 pm

    Thank you, Renee. I appreciate it.

  3. Jaymi said,

    June 15, 2008 @ 7:49 pm

    {{{hugs}}} for you!

  4. Cheryl St.John said,

    June 19, 2008 @ 3:58 pm

    I’m sorry you lost your mom. I can oly guess that it was recent. HUGS

    I came by to thank you for buying our bag from Brenda;s auction. Smooches!

    And you have our link in your sidebar. Wowza, thanks again!

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