Losing a Parent
Posted on Monday, June 9, 2008 at 2:00 pmCategory: Life
As you know, my mom passed away this past March. The only other pain that could be worse than this is losing one of your children. I couldn’t survive that. Don’t even want to think about that.
I realize that it has only been 3 months, but I foolishly thought the pain would ease up somewhat by now. It is a physical hurt that I deal with on a daily basis. My heart just…hurts. I miss that lady with everything I have and everything I am. I can only hope and pray that I’m at least half the mother to my children that she was to me, my brother and my sister.
There are times that I just can’t breathe because I miss her so much.
Yesterday a friend of mine lost her dad. Like my mom, he was way too young. She stated on her blog that she doesn’t know how she’s going to live without her daddy. I know that feeling. Dear God I know that feeling. I feel it on a daily basis. My kids, husband and family are what gets me through the day. I know my mama would be highly pissed at me if I didn’t take care of myself because my family needs me. I have people depending on me.
So dear, if you’re reading this…I know what you are going through. There are no words that will make it better. I wish there were because I would say them for me and you both. Just know that I am here if you ever need to talk…day or night…any time. 
Jenny said,
June 9, 2008 @ 7:31 pm
Hugs to you and your friend. I feel the same for my aunt and cousin as my uncle is not expected to live for very long now.
Cindy said,
June 10, 2008 @ 11:13 am
Thank you, Jenny.
I’m so sorry about your uncle.
Melanie said,
June 10, 2008 @ 12:07 pm
Thank you, Cindy.
It helps to know that I will have you to talk with when this is all over. Someone who knows. Because yes, I now know that no one else would ever understand this unless they are there or have been there.
And yes, my dad would be mad at me as well if he knew I wasn’t eating as much as I should. But he would understand. As long as I didn’t do it for long…
Oh and thank you Jenny as well. I’m very sorry about your uncle.
Melly
Melanie said,
June 10, 2008 @ 12:08 pm
And when I say over, I mean the memorial, etc. I just can’t talk to anyone for long right now. Online or on the phone. But we will talk.
Cindy said,
June 10, 2008 @ 1:11 pm
I knew what you meant, hon. It took me a while too. I just wanted you to know when it’s all over, I’ll be here. :hugs
Yeah, Mama would also understand, but I can hear her plain as day with the lecture I know she’d give me. LOL *sigh* I do miss her.