What’s with the attitudes?!?

First of all…

As of today, I’m — 3 WEEKS SMOKE FREE BABY!!!

Ok, now that I’ve done my happy dance over that…

What is it with all the attitude this past week?!?

My DH has been in a pisser of a mood off and on — and hell I can’t even get online to get away from ‘tudes!

Sit back and relax because this is gonna be one long ass blog post…

When we got our first computer 5 years ago, I was a shy, easy going (I was! LOL) and semi-nice person (notice I said semi *snort*) who loved to read. I was so excited about getting the computer so I could keep up to date about my favorite authors and find backlists of their books…etc.

While on my search for booklists, I found some of my favorite authors had messageboards, so I joined them.

I made friends and I lost friends. I’ve met (online only so far) one lady that has become the *bestest* friend anyone could ever hope to have or ask for. Lord knows we’ve been through some rough patches in our friendship. We’ve had some VERY heated arguments and we’ve even quit speaking for a while. But, being the adults we are, we talked about what happened and we worked things out. I don’t know what I’d do without her in my life and hopefully I’ll never find out.

But I went offtopic (kinda) for a bit.

After buying the computer…over the next few years, I changed. I slowly became someone that I did not like at all. I didn’t like people (online and off) and I talked about those that I didn’t like. It could be something as petty as not liking their name or screen-name and it was grounds for me to talk about them.

My Mama didn’t raise that kind of person and I am ashamed to admit that I even acted like that.

And, thankfully - I realized what I had become which was a not so very nice person. I mean really…

So what that we have a different opinion on things? Does that give me the right to call you names?

So what that your screen-name, imo, is weird? Look at mine! Mine makes sense to me and your’s makes sense to you. I really needed to get over myself. And thank God, I did.

I was very quick to say “How old are we?” or “Grow up!” when there was an argument on any of the boards I’m a member of, but I’d go behind the back of those arguing and talk about them. :wtf That makes a whole helluva lot of sense huh? :rolleyes

But even with all that said…I’m no saint. I still have issues with some people and yeah, I still talk about some people. I’m human. Sue me. But the thing is…

I’m not alone.

I’ve found several things funny the last few days. And when I say I find it funny, I DO mean HAHAHA funny.

Those that adamantly, and publicly, oppose drama and groups (aka cliques) are usually all for keeping the drama going and if they have a “group” of friends, they ARE IN a clique.

Sad, sad world we live in huh? There are so many suck-ups and back-stabbers online (and IRL too) that it ain’t even funny. I refuse to suck-up to anyone anymore. Have I done it? Yep. Another thing I’m not proud of.

Have I back-stabbed. Unfortunately I have. Thought I was gonna lie - didn’t ya? Nope. No sense in it. I’ve changed that part about myself too. Another thing I never was and had become and yep…I’m ashamed of that. Because there is definitely nothing to be proud of if you are real nice to someone to their face (computer screen? LOLOL) and then talk trash about them behind their back. Real adult like and something to be proud of huh? :whatever

Anyway…

I’m back to the ME I was 5 years ago. Like me or hate me…I’m not changing again for anyone.